The Sacred Longing

For anyone who has ever searched outside themselves, aching to feel whole again — this is for you.

I spent much of my life looking outside myself to find myself — not realizing that what I ached and yearned for most had always been within.

Early on in my healing, I came to understand that my addiction to alcohol and drugs wasn’t truly about escape — it was about longing. A deep, sacred yearning for peace… for the bliss of union with God.

I believed that in becoming human — in taking on this form — I had somehow been separated from God. Or as I prefer to say: separated from Love, from Source.

But this isn’t just my story. It’s the quiet truth beneath all addiction — all compulsions, all the restless searching outside ourselves. Whether it’s substances, relationships, approval, control, or distraction… what we’re really seeking is to come home.

We spend our lives searching — reaching, striving, looking outward — when in fact the only true journey is inward, into the sacred heart space within.

And even that… is not really a search.

Because one day, quietly, we come to understand:

There is nothing missing.

There is nothing to become.

In any given moment, we are already all of it.

All peace.

All love.

All presence — here and now. 

Nigel Lott teaandzen.org